... long story short, i took a spanish clep exam today, didn't pass, and to my current knowledge, the score from this exam was what could catapult me into the graduation scene, or prevent me from receiving my degree at the intended date...

... so right now my options are 1- register for spanish 1 and 2 at an online school to show proof that i am enrolled in the needed courses (if it's not too late to do that...)  and walk but don't receive the degree until WAY later, or 2- finish this semester with what i have, enroll in the two classes this fall, and walk next may with 2011.... i honestly am not all for walking this semester knowing the there is no degree coming until i complete to college spanish courses... it would be a fake excitement on my part... walking across the stage knowing i have more to do... a friend of mine brought up the idea that, this exercise really isn't for me, it's more for the family, parents, and supporters.... eh, i can partially agree with that, but i definitely am the one who sat thru 8 semesters of classes.... this has ALOT to do for me... completion of the requirements for a bachelors of business degree in information technology... (oh, but wait... i didn't! cuz i still have TWO courses to complete!)

this of course has to draw a spiritual/personal growth lesson. God has been working with me about putting things aside/procrastination beyond the depths of the normal battle, and it's sad that it's come to something as monumental as this to shake me, but God will go to the end of the world, grinding the very core of our being to get us to be completely dedicated to him, to refine our character, and have properly used that talents to HIS glory(one being time... management, check out Christ's Object Lessons, EGW, chapter on talents...) ... i think i get it God...